I know it seems strange to have just one New Year’s Resolution, and it’s even more strange when that resolution happens to be one of my favorite quotes. However, this is a quote that I deeply want to live my life by. I say it all the time, but now I must finally put actions to my words.
The truth is, I haven’t been very kind lately. Or courageous.
I haven’t exactly been mean to anyone- but being polite isn’t the same as being kind. To be kind, you must truly accept others as who they are, to think of others before yourself, and to act selflessly, without expecting any reward.
I’m polite at so that others will like me, and that maybe I’ll get accepted into their social circle. I judge others without meaning to (albeit silently). I put others down to make myself feel better, and in a world, that is already rife with judgements and pitting girls against each other, there is just no excuse for that behavior.
And it’s not like I’ve been a coward. When you live with anxiety, every day is a struggle to appear normal. Going out and socializing when you want nothing more than to curl up in blankets and read, is a type of bravery that many don’t recognize. However, I’m sick of just pushing myself out of my comfort zone to survive. I want to live. I want to truly have courage and do things I never dreamed I could do.
So, where do I start?
I plan to start by exhibiting pure kindness and gentleness every day. There is power behind acting gentle, and sweet, and nice. It doesn’t mean you are weak. In fact, it’s way easier to be petty and dishonest. It takes guts to be kind.
I’m going to treat everyone fairly. I’m going to stand up for what I believe in, without putting others down. I’m going to deal with my jealously, and feelings of inadequacy, in healthy ways. I will not dwell on troubling thoughts. Every human life has a story to tell, and a tragedy behind it. I want to understand others, and if they are truly undeserving of any kindness, I want to have the power to forgive them.
I’m also going to be more brave, to push my limits. This is not to say that I will suddenly get rid of my anxiety. But I’m not going to let it stop me from living my dreams. This year I am going to move, I am going to travel, I am going to write a novel, and I am going to do so much more than people expect of me. I am going to prove others wrong, with a smile on my face and conviction in my heart. I am going to turn feelings of jealously, and longing, into goals.
I am also going to do more things that make me happy. I am going to read to my heart’s content. I am going to swim, and spend more time in nature. I am going to soak in the sunbeams on my walks to work and not stress over the tasks ahead.
This is the year my reign will begin.
Have courage, and be kind, dear readers.
Hugs and Fishes,